still dont get how this works, but i just click on "new post" to the right

Clearly blogging is a sign of narcissism, misguided delusions of grandeur, while instead one is actually performing the following function: boring. That’s easily confused by many. But it also may mean that you aren’t in a relationship so the time you’d spend hooking up or fighting before bedtime can be devoted to silent expression. And being alone is cool, so…oh, and I reason that if my thoughts keep coming like sheep to the slaughter, really what is the difference if you sit by and watch them get massacred by my sheer lack of commitment. Anyway, I don’t plan on just spewing myself all over the place. I mean you can’t just announce that something is a narcissistic (CSTFT) endeavor and then just marvel around waiting for a cookie to drop into your mouth from your own ass for achieving level 1.0 of self-awareness. So, I am going to use this venture to discuss post stories about people who had it all set up, prestigious schools etc, and who get passed up by their lower counterparts, the hustlers, perhaps on account of failing to develop their spirits or any interests that do not add to the bottom line (hypothesis). Yes, it’s a social critique, and I should probably just shoot myself instead (gd forbid). Of course, blogging is not included as a form of development that is to be praised (unless you make money? I'd settle for a point). I do not anyway consider myself to be in either category as I have had a rather private upbringing and have connections, but after going to a law school that is dropping at an amazing rate as well as feeling satisfied with my particularly ideology about life (never grow up), I certainly warm up to a particular direction. I am anxious and deeply in the upper quadron of the box, so therefore diligent to some extent, but I also hate the straight and narrow arrow and so I live in a state of cognitive dissonance most every minute of the day. I never feel at one with the raver or the social chair or the dumbass who raises his hand, and I am sure neither feels at one with me since I usually condescend to either extreme. Anyway I know where I am going with this idea – but I am not telling you because you will steal it, because it is awesome. But I kind of just did tell you where I am going with this, and lucky for me I just got really tired so I am not going to think about what I am saying at all. I presume whatever I just wrote is my “aim” and will require a modicum of research, and since insight into my life still stays on topic as I have just explained, I can litter this plenty with whatever suicidal sheep I want and I haven’t really committed to anything at all. You know what else would be a good idea? All of us talking about how we feel we look compared with how we felt we looked 5 years ago.